Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Two Hours Time

Its unnerving how much can happen in 30 minutes to wreak havoc on one's day.  Today is a day like that.  And there's still hours to come!

Morning = Great!  Out of the house, nothing urgent at work, easy, calm, nice day.
Lunch = Double Great!  Business meeting that involved great food, an update on life, and a little homework for next time.
Afternoon = Crummy.  Between two phone calls I've had a guilt trip, excuses, and am left feeling voiceless. 

We all have days like this and they are just a part of life.  Dealing with things we didn't ask for, dealing with people who are just as human as me.  (And boy, am I human.)  I do find it very difficult to differentiate things and put situations into boxes.  I can separate work from life, but anything that is life related, I think of pretty holistically.  And I appreciate that about myself.  The thing that I find crummy though, is when life happens at work.  Ugh.  It just crimps my plans!  And my days.  So now, my life is all in the way of work, and I'm sitting here all huffy and puffy.

I have to say though, I did go play with Jon's new ipod in an attempt to distract myself.  It didn't work.  Maybe I'll just have to go buy one.  :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

My 'Happy'

Several weeks ago my prayer was simply, I need some happy.  I didn't really care in what form that it came in, in what area of our life.  Whether it be support raising, starting a family, work, ministry, I just needed something to happen that was good, exciting, and didn't end in tragic disappointment.  (add dramatic flair)

Well, we got our happy.  Three weeks ago we received an offer on some of our real estate.  We closed Friday.  This was something we'd been praying over and waiting on for 18 months!  This was an aspect of our lives that we were completely trusting God with - because we needed it to sell, both financially, mentally, and emotionally, in order to move overseas as missionaries.  We were confident that God knew this, and was taking care of it as His pace.  With everything else going on in our lives, it was easy to trust God with this - at least most of the time.  :)  But He came through!  It is such a relief to have this burden off our shoulders.  We're now completely debt free (well - I still have to write one last check, but whatever)!  The stress and responsibility of owning investment property is gone and we can relax a bit.  It was a weight, a nagging that was ever present in the back of our minds.  Today, its replaced my freedom!

God really showed up with this.  We felt his hand through the whole process, and worried very little throughout the process.  Despite the fact that the past three weeks have been incredibly trying in other areas of our life (more details coming), the sale of the property was the happy we needed.  I'm so thankful for it, because the provision it symbolized gave me strength through everything else. 

If I could have had my choice of 'happy' I probably would have chosen differently.  But all this has worked out so perfectly that I'm so content to wait on God's timing for things, his plans for the timeline of events in my life.  Because I know He's orchestrated it perfectly.  Whatever plans I might have may be better/easier/more exciting in the moment, but His plan will always win the oscar. 

Monday, March 21, 2011

A Month Gone By

Its hard to believe that I haven't posted in five weeks.  Mostly because it feels like its been even longer than that.  Nothing to overly exciting has happened, except for the past few days.  But this wasn't the real reason I wasn't writing.  (If you've been reading my blog for any length of time, than you know I can write a post about the most random things.)  The stuff I wanted to talk about, I couldn't talk about, for the longest time.  Writing about all the thoughts in my head was hard, made them real, and was more vulnerable than I was willing to be over the world wide web.  The only thing I wanted to write about, I couldn't.  So, no writing.

But, I'm back!  I've had the most amazing week, though dealing with some very hard things, it was still amazing.  God's hand was so evident, and His provision so perfect that we couldn't help but be in awe.  A few weeks ago my prayer was simply:  I need some 'happy'.  Something good, encouraging to happen.  And it did!  In other areas the hits kept coming, and though if I could have chosen my 'happy' I would have picked differently.  Yet God's ways are so much greater than ours.  And His plan so perfect!  I am beyond excited to see how He chooses to answer our prayers.  What great things does He have in store??

In the next few days I hope to fill in the gaps from the past month, from IF, to work and ministry changes, to huge answers to prayer, and the path we're on in complete trust in Him.  He has wrapped his arms around us, specifically me, and held me when I cried.  This is all part of the story, tiny steps to Rome, that I want to share.  Its a great story, I can't wait for the ending.