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Monday, March 21, 2011

A Month Gone By

Its hard to believe that I haven't posted in five weeks.  Mostly because it feels like its been even longer than that.  Nothing to overly exciting has happened, except for the past few days.  But this wasn't the real reason I wasn't writing.  (If you've been reading my blog for any length of time, than you know I can write a post about the most random things.)  The stuff I wanted to talk about, I couldn't talk about, for the longest time.  Writing about all the thoughts in my head was hard, made them real, and was more vulnerable than I was willing to be over the world wide web.  The only thing I wanted to write about, I couldn't.  So, no writing.

But, I'm back!  I've had the most amazing week, though dealing with some very hard things, it was still amazing.  God's hand was so evident, and His provision so perfect that we couldn't help but be in awe.  A few weeks ago my prayer was simply:  I need some 'happy'.  Something good, encouraging to happen.  And it did!  In other areas the hits kept coming, and though if I could have chosen my 'happy' I would have picked differently.  Yet God's ways are so much greater than ours.  And His plan so perfect!  I am beyond excited to see how He chooses to answer our prayers.  What great things does He have in store??

In the next few days I hope to fill in the gaps from the past month, from IF, to work and ministry changes, to huge answers to prayer, and the path we're on in complete trust in Him.  He has wrapped his arms around us, specifically me, and held me when I cried.  This is all part of the story, tiny steps to Rome, that I want to share.  Its a great story, I can't wait for the ending.

2 comments:

  1. Sometimes I think of that verse about sorrow lasting for the night, but joy coming in the morning. It gives me hope that the morning is coming! I just wish we had a way to know if it is ten pm now, or is it 5 am. Do you know what I mean?
    I understand how it feels to write about IF and then HESITATE to press the publish button, it is absolutely terrifying. The first post I did about IF had me laying awake in bed shivering. Good luck to you on this journey, may you find your take home baby soon!
    Also check out Resolve.org if you have not yet, it is a great resource. And then there is a support forum on thebump.com where you can get loads of info and support. GL!
    You can delete this comment too, if it seems to be too revealing to your other readers.

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  2. i love you friend, this reminds me i need to post updates... cause i havent either. excited to start reading again!

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