Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Love My Beauty

A friend of mine just hosted Beauty Week on her blog, and let me just say that it was so inspiring and encouraging. This is definitely an area of my life that I need to work on-being the very best me, instead of constantly comparing myself to others.

I have always dreamed of being thinner than I am. Summer time is always a prickly reminder that I'm not fond of several areas of my body. I'd really enjoy wearing a cute pair of shorts. I'd really like to lay out by the pool and be completely confident.

Besides these vain dreams I have, I also desire to be healthy. My body fat index is high, and though I'm not technically overweight, I'm at the very top of the range of what my weight should be for my height (5'7"). Josh and I were doing so well with our eating throughout April and May. I was also loving my workout time and trips to the gym. I could feel myself getting stronger and was beginning to see a visible difference. Though I had lost only two pounds (can you say frustrating), I was beginning to see a bit of definition and perhaps an inch or two loss. I'm really not sure what happened in June, other than some crazy events that very much disrupted our family routine. We ate out A LOT in June. And that's what does it for me-greasy hamburgers and fried food.

What I'm attempting to say is that lately I've been struggling with a positive body image. I think I may swear off shorts for good. I'm just going to stop trying. I don't think I've ever looked good in shorts since I was twelve. Maybe if I swear off shorts, I can avoid all this frustration that I go through every summer.

All this being said, I'm trying to motivate myself to return to that routine: egg yolks for breakfast, straight to the gym after work, more veggies, less meat.

Tomorrow I will be on a pontoon boat, awkwardly uncomfortable in my own skin. Twisted motivation? At this rate I'll be all content with my body right around the time when its time to put away the summer clothes. :)


  1. You don't have to worry about that tomorrow Meghan. It's only us. And none of us are fully comfortable with the way we look. None of us. Even people who we think should be. Even when we look back at times when we think we should have been.
    I love you!

  2. I think you have described the feelings of every girl in the world : ) I just finished reading a book I truly loved: So long insecurity you've been a bad friend to us by Beth Moore. So worth a read. Very challenging. I have felt much the same as you about many different things about myself. Nathan challenged me over the last year that I really can achieve my goals I just have to start really focusing and working to accomplish the things I want instead of complaining and wishing them away. I dreaded that treadmill everyday but always felt such and accomplishment high as my endurance got better and the miles I could run longer. My latest endeavor is spinning and gosh how I hate it in the midst but when I am done I feel so great!!
    Keep it up! Don't get discouraged. Don't focus on weight but on the shape and tone of your body. That makes results so much more rewarding for me as my weight never reflects much the accomplishments I have made.
    Remember that confidence is the most beautiful thing one can attain! If you are only focusing on your faults that is all others will see. Remember to carry yourself with confidence and show others the talented, gorgeous girl you really are!!!!