I've said before that depuation is hard. Its purpose I believe is to grow and stretch me therefore increasing my faith. Well, it also happens to increase frustration along the way.
I have complete faith that come July, Josh and I will be fine. Our support level needs to be at 50% - this is a number that our leadership has set for us. God may indeed have another plan. While Josh's salary may decrease, we will be fine. We are prepared financially for this to happen. We follow a budget, we save, we have an emergency fund.
Sometimes though, I find myself stressing about this support raising process. It was strange to me, to get so frustrated at the process, and yet have this confidence and lack of worry. How could I harbor both these feelings at the same time. But it hit me last night. I wasn't stressed because I thought we'd struggle financially in the coming months. I was stressed because I wasn't impressed with our efforts. We haven't made enough contact with potential supporters, we often forget to make phone calls and follow up with people. I was 100% confident that God would supply His funds in His time. But I wanted to be doing our part, and I feel like we aren't. While I know that God produces the results and its nothing I do, I still feel like I need to be putting in the work. I need to be trying.
Nikki had a really good line that fits perfectly with this, but I can't remember exactly. So, Nikki, please comment!